It has been a while since I have posted anything. We have had a house full of sickness and we still do! Poor Xavian has been fevering up from trying to cut 4 teeth at once and now he got the sickness that Scott and I have. Xyler has gotten it too. It is always hard on a mom when her child is sick and I am now finding it is even harder when your child has a CHD. I just hope we get this sickness out of our house and get everyone better asap! Xyler had a couple of nights where he did not sleep well from being so stuffy. Thank goodness last night went a lot better. Hopefully he will get better soon along with the rest of us.
Xyler is almost 5 months old and I just can't believe it! I guess I am a strange mom since I want time to go by fast and so far it is. I just want to get Xyler past his next surgery and then I think I will finally tell time to slow down. I can't help but to think of the night Xyler was born when I think about him being 5 months old.
I had to get up early to call into the Women's Center to see what time I needed to come in to be induced. This was at 6:00 AM, Monday morning on October 24th. When I called they told me that they did not have me on the list for that day. I couldn't believe it! my doctor's office had forgotten to call to put me on the list. I now had to wait for them to call my doctor when he got into his office. This was a few hours away and seemed like forever! They were going to induce me due to my platelet count being low. If it is too low I can't have an epidural and I really, really, really can't emphasize enough just how much I wanted an epidural. :)
Well......we finally got the call and were able to go in around 2:00 PM. I was disappointed that it was not earlier. I was so ready to not be pregnant anymore! I was worried that I would not have him early enough for our other kids to come see him. Now looking back I can see that it was meant to be the way that it was. I don't think it was an accident that my doctor's office forgot to call. I was meant to have the nurse that I did for a reason and this meant that I had to be their later than I had hoped for.
My labor was the best one I had ever had! I was only in labor for about 5 hours. During this time I had 3 different nurses. The last one I got, Nanci, is the one who was worried about how Xyler was breathing and asked someone to check his oxygen and everything. What a blessing she was. Anyway....I am getting ahead of myself. So, I was able to get an epidural and about an hour after I had gotten it Nanci came and checked me. I was dilated to a 6. Only about 15 minutes later I called Nanci back in since I was feeling a lot of pressure. I was ready to deliver. Nanci told me my doctor had just called and she had told him how I was only a six. She then had to go call him to get him there asap. I'm so glad my doctor lives close to the hospital. Xyler was ready and wanting to see the world and I was having a hard time trying to hold him back. My doctor came and hurried to get ready and then 2 small pushes later at 8:45 PM Xyler was here sporting a lot of dark hair and looking super cute. My doctor says that it was technically only one push since he had to hold Xyler back on the first one since he wasn't fully ready to catch him. :)
Xyler had the cord wrapped around his neck twice and he was really purple. They gave him some oxygen while he was getting cleaned up since he wasn't crying very good and sounded like he was struggling a bit to breath. He pinked up and started to breath and sound fine. When I held him he seemed fine. He just layed in my arms and looked up at me with his sweet dark eyes. The nurse that cleaned him up commented on how he seemed like a mellow baby and he really is. He ate a bit and then Scott held him. It was when Scott was holding him that I noticed how noisy he sounded. My other 3 kids had never sounded so noisy while breathing. Nanci came in and she noticed it too. She called a nurse up from NICU to check him out. That nurse looked at him and said that his coloring looked good and his nostrils weren't flaring so she thought he was ok. Xyler was still noisy and Nanci still didn't like it. She made sure to tell the nurse upstairs in the nursery to check him out. That is another nurse we were blessed to have.
A while after I was moved upstairs to my room the nursery nurse came in to bathe Xyler and then take him away to check him out. She left with my little Xyler and us thinking everything was fine. A little bit later she braught him back and I will never forget what she said. She came up to me and told us that she didn't have good newa. She then told us about Xyler's oxygen being low and that she heard a murmur in his heart. There are really no words to describe all the thoughts and feelings that you have when you hear that. She handed me Xyler so I could hold him one more time and give him a hug and kiss before he was taken to the NICU. I hugged him tight and kissed him while crying the whole time. I just couldn't believe my baby who had seemed healthy before had something wrong with his heart. After she left I just turned to Scott and cried. I think he was in shock too and didn't quite know what to think.
A little bit later our pediatrician came in to tell us about Xyler. This was another blessing that our ped. was the doctor on call. It helped us out a lot to have someone there that we knew and trusted. He told us that they were going to have an ECHO done on Xyler so that they can see what is wrong and know which hospital he needed to go to. He talked to us for a bit and after he left I just cried. I just couldn't believe this was happening. You hit a moment where you just wonder if you are dreaming, or I guess you just hope that you are. It was late but I decided to call my mom to let her know that something was wrong and that Scott was not going to be home anytime soon since she was staying at our house watching our other kids. I was worried about my other kids at home and just wanted my mom to keep an ear out for Xavian. We just didn't know what was going to happen.
When I was finally able to go down to the NICU, I made sure I walked since I knew that I was not going to let them keep me there after Xyler was taken to a different hospital. The ECHO showed that he had a hole and that he needed to go to PCMC. Everything that our doctor had told us was so hard to understand. It wasn't until we were shown pictures at PCMC that we finally started to understand what was wrong. After Xyler was life flighted Scott and I hurried home after gathering up my stuff so that we could pack some things for Scott and let my mom know what was going on.
I walked in the door and went straight to my mother's arms and just cried. I still could not believe what was happening. We told her what we knew and then hurried to get things packed. I asked my mom if her and my dad could bring our kids down later so that they could meet their new little brother. This was very important to me since I had no idea what was going to happen to Xyler. It was such a scary time for me. My parents were so good to bring them down and to take care of them. My mom was so wonderful at taking care of our kids during that time and after. My sister Heather also took them for the weekend and brought them to the hospital the day of Xyler's surgery. I'm so thankful for all of their help.
These are the things I think of when I think of the day Xyler was born. It was an experience Scott and I will never forget. It was a very scary time but we are so grateful to have him in our family and doing as well as he is. He has been such a blessing to our family. It is so heart warming to see how much our other kids love their baby brother and care about what he is going through. Xyler always smiles when one of them comes up to him to talk to him. I have learned that with trials comes great blessings and we have been blessed with many of both. I love my family so much and am so grateful for each and every one of them!
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