Saturday, April 13, I was able to go to a luncheon for heart mom's. It was a great lunch filled with great people and speakers. I love the feeling of unity when I am around other heart mom's. We can get together and talk all of the medical talk and everything else that goes with the heart journey we all go through and we all understand how hard it is. What a special thing to have. I feel very lucky to be apart of the Intermountain Healing Hearts.
Tiffany Peterson was the guest speaker and I loved everything she talked about. I really wish I would have been better prepared with a pen and notepad and taken notes. She called us "Spiritual Giants". This really effected me every time she would say it. I think as a mom you always have your moments of feeling lacking in everything that you do for your kids and family. This feeling can get intensified when you have a child with a CHD. I have many moments of wondering why Heavenly Father thought I could handle this trial because I feel like I am failing on keeping my self together let alone take care of everything that I need to. I am constantly worried that I might miss something with Xyler that will be life threatening or that I'm not giving my other kids the attention they need. Hearing Tiffany call us Spiritual Giants gave me a sense of pride for what I have and will endure. It made me feel like I can make it through this no matter what happens.
This heart journey is not easy and I don't know if it ever will get easier but I am grateful for the blessings and lessons I have learned because of it. That is one of the things she talked about. To look at what this journey is teaching us. I feel like I have grown and learned a lot in these last 17 1/2 months. I still have days where I struggle with everything but I also have days where I see the many blessings I have been given and it makes it all worth it. I think any parent will agree that anything you have to go through for your child is worth it. I love my kids so much! I learn from each of them in many different ways. I feel so blessed to be their mother.
